Happy Birthday- A Dedication

Happy Birthday
By Chanel Danette 04/09/11

I see your face in my dreams,
speaking to me.
Singing, "hush little baby don't you cry."
I wish I could still hear the exact tone of your voice
when I wake up.

I remember you sleeping on the floor next to my bed,
and Christmas' glow on your face.
There's a recollection of memories
that I hold dear to my heart.
Such as, a handprint smaller than yours,
but nonetheless, the same handprint.

I was your little princess,
your only pride and joy.
You were the joyous king that sat on his throne
in triumph because you felt like you conquered everything.
I was everything the world had to offer,
in your eyes.
And you achieved wonders.

I miss holding your hand and giving you hugs.
Saying I love you, didn't seem like enough.
Now I wish,
that the timeframe was repeated over and over.
Living the same scenes like dejavu
just so I can spend more time with you.

The only man I could ever hold to a high standard.
My life would surely be different, if I had not lost you.
When I lost you,
I lost half of what was me.
When I lost half of me, I lost the part of me I can't ever get back.
I want that back.
But it's not possible and it still hurts.
Happy Birthday.